Tired but not Sleepy

I just got done checking on my little girls. I love looking in on them at night. Sometimes I do it as a reminder of how sweet they are. This is especially needed when Camy throws a fit from the time she sees food being prepared until it is served to her. Tonight wasn't one of those nights. The girls were awesome this weekend. I can't believe how grown-up Jaely has become. She does so many things all by herselp. The battles we fought this fall are over. While this is wonderful, the pessimist in me is waiting for the next round to begin. Camryn is overflowing with personality. She knows and understands so much of what is going on around her. She has almost perfected the "hit when no one is looking" move. She continues to challenge all of our rules, but her smile when she gets caught and her attempts to cover it up with sweetness is too funny.

It has been so hard to be back working full time. I am being drained by my internship. While I am so thankful to be paid to do this work, I am putting a ton of pressure on myself. I want to look like I have it all together and can do all this work when I have only a small clue to as what I am doing. I know I am doing the best that I can and I am trying to be okay with that. I hear good things back from adults and students, but I have a hard time believing what they are saying. I am afraid at what is going to happen when the person I have been filling in for returns.

I have a hard time looking at the students I see without seeing them as someone's children and in some cases I know they are someone's parent. I know that my parents are outstanding and that they have always loved me. Even with that, being a teenager was HARD! I hope that my girls never doubt how loved they are. I pray that God continues to watch over them and guide them. Life is too short, too hard, and too wonderful to try to do it by yourself.